A Place Amid Ashes (2.3)

This story segment contains scenes of violence and death.


Shaila Dominance – Djose Woods, outside Knyskna.

Sergeant Bahir was still lively, and he began to deal out orders. “Gather up any stray Schnitzers, and point them north. Keep six or seven shells around for each. We’re advancing. I’ve got more Imperialists to kill. We’ll leave behind a few people to rig up the Imperialist’s ammunition and supplies for destruction. You,” He pointed at Elena, “You’ve got explosives in that pack, right? Leave them for the cleanup crew before we go.”

Elena nodded and she did as instructed, leaving behind her pack. She seemed relieved to be rid of it. Sergeant Bahir ordered about ten people to stay behind, crewing two undamaged Schnitzer 37mm guns and setting explosives around the stacks of crates and in the contents of overturned tents.

About forty other soldiers, including Leander, Elena and Bonde, gathered around Sgt. Bahir and advanced north over the toppled sandbag wall the armored car had run over to attack them. He divided them into three teams that would spread out and follow the woods around a path about five meters wide that ran downhill from the clearing and into the forest. The path was an old woodland trail just flat enough and wide enough for cars to move through, but the fire teams stuck to the treeline on either side.

Everyone moved briskly, no longer caring what they trampled over to make it from cover to cover. Without the element of surprise they had to treat every stretch of wood as though the enemy was charging to meet them. Electric torches cast wandering lights into the wood to make up for the distance they had put to the Nocht pyres and lanterns in the camp. Two people in each thirteen-gun squadron walked with a sidearm and a flashlight, guiding the rest downhill. Eleven others stuck to their submachine guns.

As they advanced Leander saw flashes in the west, flares and gunfire in the distance.

“The other assault group,” Bonde said. “They haven’t found respite like us.”

No sooner had this been said that the respite was at its end.

From the gloom of the forest Leander heard the clinking sounds of several grenades striking the carpet of twigs. He could not judge the distance well, but nobody was about to risk being bombarded by fragments. Everyone in Leander’s squadron took cover against the thickest, closest trees they could find and steeled themselves.

No explosion followed.

A thick cloud of smoke rose from the forest floor instead, and there was a din of running boots, moving in the cloud, crunching leaves and twigs. Leander and Elena stuck shoulders to either side of a big tree, put their backs to one another, and leaned out in preparation. Nocht soldiers moved up in force, known at first only by the stomping of their boots, and then by the cracking of their bullets, chipping bark off trees used for cover.

After the first exchanges of gunfire the battle grew pitched. Smoke grenades burst around the forest, some igniting patches of dry leaves and creating dancing torches in the gloom. Assault teams hunkered down and shot their Rashas and pistols into the wood in the hopes of stemming the hidden tide. Nocht’s combat presence grew from distant flashes and rustling movements through the fog; to withering bursts of concentrated gunfire probing the Ayvartan’s cover; to shadows, darting from tree to tree and charging ever closer to Leander and his team. He directed tentative fire their way, hitting nothing.

Chaos unfolded in the thick wood. Leander could have sworn that he had heard men fall and cry in pain, but nonetheless the opposing ranks crashed into one another as though their numbers had never thinned, and he found himself firing at gray uniforms so close that he could discern everything about them. The battle lines were just a few meters from each other, and it felt far more personal even than the battles in the well-lit camp.

He saw the helmets, like coal pails, with a projecting visor and a flared rim; faces white as chalk with piercing eyes; great gray coats that seemed to hide their real shapes.

Rather than Nocht carbines, many of the soldiers Leander now faced returned fire with metallic SMGs, pinning him with the same deadly bursts as the Ayvartan Rasha.

Leander and Elena quickly found their backs directly pressed to each other, both fully in hiding from intense gunfire. Wood chips flew around them as gunfire struck cover.

“Watch your sides!” Sergeant Bahir shouted through the storm. “They’re going to flank you! Ignore the gunfire facing your cover and keep your flanks and backs guarded!”

Leander swallowed hard, realizing that he and Elena were now a flank of their team, positioned by ill fate on the extreme left side of the advance.

He leaned out of cover and opened fire, hoping he might dissuade Nochtish movement, but a retaliatory blaze from the enemy forced him into hiding again. Nocht gunners fought back with precision, while the Ayvartans had no coordination as to who was firing, who was reloading, and how to advance. Without Sergeant Bahir screaming from somewhere in the middle of the battle, there would have been no leadership at all.

Their squadron was concentrated, and had poor angles on the enemy’s positions despite proximity. Leander could see Bonde and many of his other squad mates crowding the adjacent trees, sloppily trading low caliber gunfire with the enemy.

A principal obstacle in front of them, preventing them from advancing or dispersing, was a long, overturned tree trunk serving as cover for crouched and seated Nocht troops, and guarded on either side by Nocht submachine gunners in good cover behind standing trees. It was from there that a rising gale of bullets kept Leander’s team pinned down.

He could not see the positions occupied by the other teams through the shadows and smoke, but he knew his own team was gaining no ground at all.

“I’m throwing a grenade!” Elena told him suddenly. “I hear movement over there!”

She pointed out to their left flank, at an indistinct series of shadows in the gloom that Leander assumed were more trees. SMG fire raged in front of them and prevented Leander from leaning out to try to spot enemy movement, but he was not about to doubt Elena if she thought they were in danger. He nodded to her in acknowledgment.

“I’ll cover you.” He crouched and tried to guard her as she primed.

Elena had a good arm, and reared back and cast the grenade exactly where she had told him. It soared between a pair of thin trees and over a series of cleared stumps. Within an instant they saw the blast as a brief, powerful flash. They heard a crashing noise from something heavy nearby, and a helmet flew out of the wood and rolled past them.

Looking over the site of the carnage they thought they could make out a corpse, sprawled over a tree stump with an uninhibited view of Leander and Elena’s tree. He had been trying to circumvent their cover, and Elena had managed to stop him.

They stared in shock, wondering whether this was horror or fortune before them.

Emboldened by Elena’s throw, one of their squad mates at Bonde’s side reached for his own grenade. He shouted, “Throwing a grenade!” and signaled his intention to throw forward at the Nocht position. Several other squadmates stepped out and fired fiercely to cover for him, while Elena and Leander reloaded and attempted to join.

But this maneuver would prove very short-lived.

Nocht gunners retaliated instantly despite the suppressive volleys from his squadmates, and the man received a wound to the leg as he leaned out to throw, and fell out of cover. His grenade rolled out of his hands and barely left the battle line.

Nobody could reach out to save the man; everyone hunkered down in a panic, as the grenade was primed and about to blow. Leander cried out in shock and covered himself. Between the lines the grenade went off, the trees fully absorbing the blast and fragments. When the squad recovered their comrade lay butchered on the floor just centimeters away, and the enemy gunners were mildly shaken and certainly far from dislodged.

Leander’s stomach tightened, and he could not grip his weapon well.

In the midst of the noise he remembered the only other time he had ever felt so sick and hurt and fearing for his life – once when his family had stopped to hunt wild boar in the woods of some lost corner of Ayvarta, untouched by anyone but nomads for years and years. He had never been allowed to go hunting, and was forced to stay with the girl children. But one time he had ventured to escape and to find the hunters.

Unfortunately for him, he met a wild boar before they did.

He saw firsthand how one of the caravan men killed it to save him.

It was faster and stronger than them, a massive beast against mere men, but it wanted Leander’s flesh, not theirs. They dove upon it from behind and butchered it alive with their knives. Despite all its brute strength the boar could not match their ferocity.

Leander had not been able to move a muscle, facing that hideous thing, but in his terror he had played a part in their success. He had drawn the monster’s attention to himself.

“Elena,” he found himself saying, his voice shaking and his Ayvartan tongue ever more accented and difficult to maintain, “You have a sharp spade, a trench spade, do you?”

His grammar was becoming loose as well. Still in shock, Elena nodded.

It was easily seen on her pack, and Leander took it, hands shaking.

“What are you going to do?” She asked, staring with wide eyes at him.

He did not respond, not with words. He did not even breathe.

Leander dropped his SMG and stormed unceremoniously out of cover.

Running with desperate strength he tried to circle the engagement, putting as many trees between himself and the enemy as he could. He had to cover as much ground as he could while they were still focused on the trees and not their flanks. The gun, the ammo, the grenades, none of it would help him. He had to bet everything on his feet, his arms, his foolishness, and the enemy’s focus – and on their primal fear of claws, teeth, and melee.

He ran with his head down, vaulting over stumps and roots, charging with both hands on his spade, held out in front of him, swinging with his arms. For a foolish instant he believed he went unnoticed, then bullets started to trail his way from the enemy’s right flank, chipping pieces off the trees and striking the dirt as his feet left the ground.

He did not pause, he took no cover – he felt as if his heart would seize up with the rush.

Around him the gunfire grew in intensity.

Stray SMG bullets ricocheted off the back of his plate armor and off his shoulder with each enemy burst and he screamed in pain and rage from the blunted impacts. He screamed to keep moving, his entire body hurtling forward in a daze. He screamed to live. If his voice gave out, if his mind froze up, his limbs would too and he knew he would die.

Through the firestorm he ran a dozen meters to cover less than six, and it was like a writhing blur before him. Leander ran the left flanks of the enemy’s position and charged toward a pair of guards still firing at his comrades from behind the trees. He put his spade in front of him and threw himself as fast as he could toward the two men.

One man looked over his shoulder and saw him coming.

He ripped himself from his position, turning in a panic and opening fire as Leander drew upon him. Rounds caught in the metal assault armor, hitting Leander like rocks thrown at his stomach, but he did not slow. He came crashing forward and swept the man aside, throwing him to the ground and casting his weapon away into the shadows.

Ayvartan fire resumed as Leander attacked, chipping at the trees; the second SMG gunner turned away from the front and fully around in time to meet Leander.

He did not get to fire a shot.

Leander bashed his hands with the spade, turning his gun to the ground, and bashed him across the head. His opponent stumbled, hitting his back against the tree. Leander reared back and with all the strength he could summon he drove the spade through the man’s mouth. The sharpened edge split the cheeks and cut right through the back of the neck. Leander thought he felt the tip slicing through bone and hitting wood.

From the ground the surviving gunner witnessed the horror that had become of his squad-mate and crawled away on his back. Leander ripped the bloody spade free from the corpse with both hands and in one fluid motion he turned and swung again.

With one horrible thrust he pierced the man’s head across his nose.

There was silence for a few confounding seconds before Leander was again aware of the gunfire, of the rustling in the trees, of the distant blasts. He dropped his spade.

More pressingly, he had become hyper-aware of his own body, trapped in it.

He sucked in air desperately, choking and heaving. Every tissue in his body seemed to thrash and thrum with pain, blood crashing through sheared sinews, muscles twisting, his tongue hanging out and drooling. Rivulets of sweat felt like razors across his skin. He felt the bullet impacts blunted by his armor across his back and belly and chest, swelling and scorching. He kneeled helplessly over the corpses, about to vomit in pain and trauma.

From the forest came a renewed stomping and screams in a strange language.

Leander looked slowly up and saw figures in the forest, staring at him like a beast.

Kommunisten! Feuer frei!”

They brought their rifles up to shoot at him.

From behind him a hail of gunfire lit up the figures, like fiery arrows in the gloom.

“Leander, we’re retreating! Leander!”

Elena knelt beside him, firing her submachine gun into the woods and screaming at him. Leander lay dazed for a moment, while his squadron moved up to the position behind the long overturned trunk, firing into the woods and leaping over the cover.

His distraction must have allowed them to overrun it.

He helped himself to stand by Elena’s shoulder, hobbling to look around the tree he had charged. All of the men that had impeded their progress lay dead, and his comrades hurried to pick the officer among them for anything important.

Bonde hurried up to the front, and took Leander over his shoulder.

He looked Leander in the eyes and nodded, smiling at him. Acknowledging him.

“I’m afraid we can’t take a token of this, but we will remember it.” Bonde said.

They left the spade where it lay over the corpses, and Elena took Leander’s other arm over her own shoulder. She tried to smile at him too, but she was visibly more shaken than Bonde. Leander thought that like him she was nearing the end of her composure.

Something intangible that allowed them both to fight as they had done until now was dangerously close to breaking. Leander could hardly make sense of his own head anymore.

Sergeant Bahir screamed out from somewhere in the forest: “All remaining flares, fire overhead to the closest enemy position and retreat quickly! We need to cover our escape, we’re falling back to the trucks. The enemy is livelier than we anticipated!”

Leander sighed pitiably, feeling a terrible pain just doing that.

It all had been for naught.

All at once the remaining flares rose skyward from the depths of the wood, and were followed by a torrent of mortar fire from the far-off road. Like stars falling from heaven the shells would scream down behind them and light up the forest for an instant, forcing the imperialists into hiding or tossing them like toys with direct hits.

Joining the attack on the advancing Nocht forces were captured Schnitzer guns from the camps in the rear, lobbing High-Explosive shells over the retreating Ayvartans and deep into the ranks chasing them. Many shells caught in the trees above Nochtish troops, but burst into fragments and lit fires that nonetheless worked in the communist’s favor.

Leander did not look back, but the fire and the marching he heard in the distance suggested to him that they had likely not even chipped at the imperialist’s strength in the wood. Surprise had been their only advantage and they barely left a scratch on the enemy.

Somehow the desperate retreat was not overrun. Elena and Bonde hurried through the wood with Leander in tow, past the clouds of smoke and the corpses of enemy and comrade alike. They rushed uphill, and the Schnitzers were abandoned and disabled with grenades.

Leander asked to be put down, and on shaking and hurting but still capable legs he ran alongside his comrades. His chest felt like it would rip open from the inside whenever he breathed while running, and he was soon feeling light-headed again, but he would not stop moving. He did not want to be carried again. He hated feeling like a burden.

Soon the group was deep into the forest, and could see the lights from the trucks ahead of them on the road. They heard resounding explosions at their backs as the imperialist’s stockpiles detonated, consuming the remainder of their outer camps in an inferno.

Even that felt like a hollow victory.

Everyone who reached the road pulled themselves back into their trucks with bleak expressions in their faces, if their face had an expression at all. Many soldiers seemed struck dumb with glassy eyes and no understanding of their surroundings.

Adrenaline now wearing off, Leander felt he too must have looked confused and spent, struggling to raise his legs and climb into the bed of a truck while feeling as though his body would rip itself apart in the process. He had never felt so drained.

Of the 24 people who could fit in this truck, there were only 8 left.

He settled uncomfortably on his bench, playing with the catches fastening his armor at his shoulder. He knew his binder was totally ruined under his clothes – he felt the itchy fabric sheared to pieces against his chest. But he still wanted the damned armor off. He could not quite remove it by himself, and was advised to wait until a physician could see him – the armor might have been helping to keep him standing, his comrades told him.

The truck rattled to a start, drove into the ditch on its side and turned around back the way it came, toward Knyskna. It had been many hours since they departed. Goblin tanks lobbed shots into the length of the wood to stymie an enemy interdiction as the convoy drove forward at full speed, the time for stealth and silence long since over.

Leander’s vision went in and out of focus. He felt someone reach out to him.

“You did well, Leander. You were brave.” Bonde said. “You too, Elena, you fought fiercely. All of us are still learning, and right now the enemy is our only teacher. Today you conquered an enemy who fought like he was born to do so. We were not born into this. But if we can buy more time and fight like that, we can win. I know we can win.”

“Can we?” Elena said, sighing. “Nocht has felt nothing short of invincible to me.”

“I’m not quite together enough to return the optimism, Bonde.” Leander said.

“I’m just trying to lift your spirits up. You did not fail by any measure today.”

The two of them looked skeptically at Bonde.

“I’m being serious with you two!” He said. He took off his helmet, and ran his hand through his very short, closely cropped hair, scratching. He showed them the helmet – a bullet had caught in it, a hair’s width from his head. “All of us survived an ordeal today. All of us cheated death today. Our continent has so many legends about this.”

“I’m sorry, but I’m a Zungu.” Elena said, referring to people of Lubon or Cissean or Nochtish or Svechthan extraction – “ivory-faced” – that were nonetheless native to Ayvarta.

Leander was a Zigan so he already did not fit the demographics particularly well.

But he knew Bonde was an Umma, the most ancient people of the continent, even more so than the majority Arjuns of Ayvarta, examples of which were many around them.

“I don’t know the legends,” Elena said, “and I don’t really worship the Umma’s ancestors or the Arjun’s spirits. I just know what I saw – and it looked like defeat.”

“Zigan folklore is even grimmer on this subject.” Leander said, his voice beginning to grow weak again as the pain across his chest flared up. “If you cheat death you owe him, and he will collect far sooner than if you had lived a full and healthy life. Daredevils are not rewarded among us. We are a cautious sort who try to avoid trouble.”

“Well, fine, then let’s not talk about legends. I’m comforted by religion – but I understand a lot of communists are simply not. If you need a reason to carry on, think of this.” Bonde said. “We are free. We have our place in the world. They’re trying to take it away. There is no other place for us like Ayvarta. That is why we must, and we will, keep fighting. We do not exist anywhere else – what you are here, Leander, you can be nowhere else. Same goes for you, Elena, and for all of us. What we are here, will fight here or will die here. It has to win here.”

Bonde’s words shocked him. He instantly wondered whether Bonde knew those inalienable and difficult feelings which Leander held about his body, about his soul – but of course he could not have. What chance had he had to learn them?

However, some of what he said rang true for him in other ways.

Leander remembered Gadi, the brightly-dressed woman who accepted him into Bika. He remembered the people of Bika and his few days living under the auspice of their generosity. He thought he’d had a place with them in a way that he never had before. He was free with them. He felt both a strong disgust and fear that Nocht had taken it all from him, but also a growing strength to resist. He had to fight for it, all of them had to.

He had to stand amid its ashes to preserve his freedom if needed.

“You’re right about that, in more ways than you know.” Elena said.

When they wanted to kill Leander, the Nochtish men had screamed Kommunisten.

It was strange. His eyes began to water, but not because of corporeal pain or the reverberations of gunfire and shells and wailing death that played out inside of his skull. His tears were sentimental. He felt the fighting so close now, much closer than ever before; each round fired was being fired on the soil of his only home.

He had been fighting for something borrowed all this time, and it was becoming his now. But it gave him a strange kind of courage too. Bonde and Elena both noticed him weeping, and they patted him in the back and tried to console and comfort him, as their trucks drove hurriedly back to Knyskna to prepare for Nocht’s counterattacks.

They looked like they understood what he felt.

This was something common among them all now. They were Ayvartans.


In the year 2030 D.C.E the Federation of Northern States, “Nocht,” launched “Operation Monsoon,” as part of Generalplan Suden, the invasion of the Communist southern continent of Ayvarta. Across the twin dominances of Adjar and Shaila, Nocht deployed half a million troops for their first wave, and held more in reserve.

The largest concentrations of these troops were the elite Task Force Lee in Shaila, whose Panzer and Panzergrenadier divisions stormed quickly through Ayvartan defenses and seemed unstoppable as they took land, bombed airfields, and drove back defenders.

Shaila was defended by Battlegroup Lion, an army weakened by the policies of the national civil council parliament in Solstice. Suffering crushing defeats, the bulk of its troops were encircled in Tukino. In its darkest hour they were unable to defend Knyskna.


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A Place Amid Ashes (2.1)


25th of the Aster’s Gloom, 2030 D.C.E.

Shaila Dominance – Djose Woods, outside Knyskna.

Twenty-three others joined Leander in the back of the truck, sitting where they could, submachine guns and rifles in their hands. They were motorized troops now – they would ride a truck close as possible to battle, dismount the truck, and then rush in with their feet. They were lucky to have a good truck, with a roof and benches – there were soldiers riding in on their backs in open flatbeds, like they were cargo sacks.

Behind them a squat, boxy Goblin tank with a drum-like turret and a straw-like gun noisily followed, its turret surveying the wood, providing close support to the attack. A few soldiers in the truck grumbled about it, telling the rookies that they should not get their hopes up about the Goblin. There were other similar tanks with them as well, but they were out of sight, riding ahead of them and split between guarding different trucks.

Their convoy boasted over a dozen trucks with hundreds of soldiers. Leander had also heard his compatriots speaking about a second flank with just as many troops. A significant portion of their regiment was invested into this attack.

He swallowed to force down a lump in his throat.

It was an atmosphere so different from his few peaceful days in Bika.

Everyone was quiet. Leander included, the people on the truck sat rigid, stone-faced, forcing themselves upright. Nothing seemed to cross their minds, as though betraying a thought would topple them like towers of matchsticks.

Outside it was pitch black, without spotlights in the sky or occasional flashes of shells. There was only the tank following them, the gloomy seated figures, the dirt road, and a vast expanse of darkness. The Djose was impenetrable, a solid curtain of shadow scrolling past. There was no point in keeping their eyes peeled to the woods; their eyes could see nothing there. To conceal their movements they drove slowly and with all of the lights off, save for a dim lamp in the middle of the troop compartment.

Most of his comrades had their heads down, trying to get some rest before the attack. Others mumbled while barely making any eye contact. Leander felt a little uneasy.

He tried not to let his doubts show on his face, but it was hard not to feel out of place in a truck of soldiers headed to battle. He shook his legs nervously.

“What’s your name, comrade?”

Beside him, a small, fair woman with short hair addressed him. Her metal armor and helmet seemed too large for the overall size of her body, and fastened tighter than his.

“Leander Gaurige.” He said. He politely appended, “Comrade,” after.

She nodded. She had a bashful demeanor, barely making eye contact or lifting her face to look at him. When she spoke again she did so very seriously, in a hushed and secretive tone of voice. “I’m Elena North. This might sound silly, but I wanted to know a name I could call out if I needed help. I don’t know anybody here, and received little training.”

Leander was astonished at how close her name was to his former, feminine name: Elea.

“Neither do I.” He said quickly. “I was from Bika.”

“I was from Klima, close to the Cissean border.” She said. “My family were originally from Cissea, but I grew up in Ayvarta. We were forced to flee from Klima a week ago. I joined the military in Knyskna after that, thinking that I could be of service here.”

“I joined it in Bika, but we fled there too.” Leander said.

He recalled the horror he felt as those tanks rolled over the hills as if they had materialized from nowhere– but he closed his eyes, breathed deep and wiped them away from the film reels spinning in his mind. He didn’t want to fixate on those events. He was not ready to mourn a lost home, or even to admit that he had lost anything. Instead, he tried to smile, and force away the dark thoughts, hardening his heart to them.

He offered Elena his hand. “Let’s cling together, Comrade North.”

She took his hand, smiling a little bit herself. “Yes, Comrade Gaurige.”

“If you’re making friends, I want in,” said a young man on Leander’s left, putting his hand on Leander’s shoulder. Unlike Leander and Elena his hair was short enough they could see none of it coming out from under his helmet, and his skin was very dark, almost a blueish black. He held out his hands and Leander shook it; he reached over Leander’s lap and took Elena’s hand as well. She bashfully took the tips of his fingers, and shook them as though shaking salt or pepper over a dish. He laughed, and returned to his seat.

“I’m Bonde.” He said. “I’m from Knyskna itself. Pushed right out of a training battalion, into a pillbox, and now a truck. I prefer it to waiting for a concrete-buster to hit my head.”

“Likewise.” Leander said. “Pillboxes are hellish.”

“I wanted to be part of the medical corps, but they needed nimble people for the assault teams.” Elena said. “I guess they glanced over and found me nimble enough for the task.”

Leander did notice that nobody around them looked very heavy.

A hatch opened from the front of the truck. From the passenger seat, their commanding officer, a tanned man with short, wispy white hair, looked back on them and provided instructions. Sergeant Bahir had jumped into the truck last, once everyone had been loaded up, and nobody got to see him until now. He was a sleek, dark man, like a figure precisely sculpted, with no edges out of place and no parts gone unsmoothed.

“Alright troops, we’ve suffered some setbacks before, but now is our time to surprise the imperialists.” Sgt. Bahir said, his voice taking a fiery tone of oratory, “Nocht thought they could run over Knyskna, but in their greedy charge they outran their armored support, and ran right into our guns. Now they’re holed up in this forest waiting for the dawn to launch an attack. We won’t let them get started. Our air recon may be limited, but this afternoon we found critical positions in the woods, and signs of movements that are key to their operation here. We’ve taken these unused backroads in a circumspect route around the forest to avoid Nocht patrols. When this truck stops, we’ll dismount and we’ll trail through the forest on foot to flank their rear echelons where they least expect. Our goals in particular are to threaten their artillery positions and destroy their supplies. We’re not taking any prisoners. But if you see any documents, you take those and you make sure you survive to see a Commissariat information officer. They may be vital to our success here.”

Everyone in the truck sat up straighter as they listened to him. Leander felt a fire light in his chest. It sounded like such an important mission to be on, for someone who had been a socialist for a mere ten days. Now he felt even more committed, though he had little formal training save what he was told by officers during lulls in the fighting.

He had first been a support rifleman for a gun crew, and then a gun loader, after seeing death for the first time. Now he was part of the assault troops.

It didn’t enter into his mind how desperate this seemed.

Sgt. Bahir continued. “Another formation of our troops is preparing for an assault on the opposite flank – we will storm through the forest by surprise and pinch the imperialists in their camp. We will have the support of a 120mm heavy mortar battalion that will stay behind, but we can only signal them through flares. Check your supplies now: if you have a flare with you then you will shoot it when instructed by me. Understood?”

Around the truck, several soldiers fondled their packs thoughtfully, where their flare guns were kept. Not everyone had such a gun. Leander was not given one. So only a few of them carried this responsibility. Leander sighed a little with relief. He did not know if he trusted his own judgment on these matters.

“Those of you with flares must shoot them over the position to be targeted.” Sgt. Bahir said. “The artillery fire will be imprecise due to our present conditions – launch your flare so that it rises over your target and then take cover. Don’t shoot any position closer than 10 meters from yourself. Got that?”

Those soldiers with flare guns nodded their heads.

“Then let us teach Nocht to fear the shadows in the woods, comrades!”

Leander gripped his own Rasha submachine gun tighter, and he cheered with the rest of the squadron in the truck. When everyone settled back down he was still gripping it tight. He had fired the longer Bundu rifles before, when serving as gun crew support. The submachine gun, he had been told, suited him better because it was light and he could fire a lot of bullets without immediately reloading, which was his major problem when operating the old bolt-action rifle. Each Rasha was a simple design, with a wooden stock and a short steel body, easy to carry and wield, and fed through box magazines or drums – he had drums now, provided by the woman in the staging area.

He checked the drum currently attached. It was fully loaded.

“How much is in here?” He asked Elena.

“I believe sixty. But it shoots so fast you can barely count it.”

Elena was armed similarly to Leander. Neither had flare guns. Unlike them Bonde had a flare gun in a pouch. Elena had instead been entrusted two big packs strapped to her back.

“Careful with the drums,” Bonde warned. “They’re prone to jamming.”

“What do I do if it jams?” Leander asked.

“Toss it, pull out a pistol, and get in cover.” Bonde said.

In other words, he could do nothing about it.


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Change of Scenery (1.3)


He walked a few blocks down to the Civil Canteen, a building emblazoned with the same symbol as the Civil Affairs office, but also a sign depicting a large loaf of bread and a glass of milk. There was no one currently eating, which to Leander proved his idea that most of the villagers were working at the moment. Half the building was open to the air, with only two walls, and the roof held by concrete pillars.

There was one enclosed room, where perhaps the food was kept and prepared, and one long serving counter against the back wall. An older village man stood behind a serving counter, and Leander showed him his ticket. The man went into the adjacent room and withdrew a real ration card and an ink pen, and bid Leander to write his name in clear characters in the back. Leander looked over the card, with its cheerful design of a hilly village overlooking a farm, and he happily signed it, and set it aside to dry.

While they waited for the ink to dry, Leander took a wooden tray from a nearby stack and helped himself to the food, stored in containers along the counter and kept warm by little flames caged far beneath each container, likely turned off and on throughout the day to keep the food delectable. He served himself some curried vegetables, long beans and potatoes and cauliflower in a yellow broth; a few scoops of long-grain rice; and a flatbread the size of his face. Milk was abundant, flavored with different fruits, and he took a wooden mug and filled it to sate himself. He dipped the flatbread in the curry sauce first, to try it out. It was a bit watery, but spicy and flavorful. Better than the food at the caravan!

“So, do you work here?” Leander asked. He then nearly bit his tongue. It seemed a very stupid thing to say right after he had said it, but it was all the conversation that he could contrive.

“Yes, in a sense. People serve themselves, I just take notes for the office. I got a condition, you see.” The man showed Leander his shaking black hands. “Nervous condition, says the clinic, and I can’t work other things. But there’s always something to do if you want to. This counts as a job to the Office, so I took it.”

Leander nodded. He soon emptied his plate, and the ink on his card dried. Nobody had come or gone since he had arrived, though he had seen a few people walk up the street behind him. The Canteen man asked him to sign on a clipboard hooked on one of the pillars, to record that he had eaten one of his meals for the day. There were quite a few names already, likely from people coming in for breakfast. Leander complied graciously.

“I’m new around here, by the way. I hope to settle down. I’m Leander.”

“You can call me Kibwe.” The Canteen man said. “And I understand. We’re near the border so we see people a couple times a year. Runnin’ from awful things in Mamlakah or Cissea, I bet.”

“Where could I find a tailor and a place to stay?”

“Village center, we have a big plaza with the Msanii and the goods shop. Lodge there should have room.”

“Thank you.” Leander pocketed his new ration card.

“By the way, about that card. You won’t get punished or anything if you eat more than you’re allowed, but just know that it puts a bit of a burden on the village.” Kibwe said. “If you’re hungry and you’ve had your meals for the day, you should pay for any extra food – helps keep the village going in the long run.”

Leander nodded. “I understand. I will see you again soon then, Kibwe.”

“You look like a nice boy, Leander. I expect you’ll be fine in Bika. Peace to you.”

The compliment gave Leander quite a spring in his step. He practically skipped all the way to the plaza in the center of the village.

Everything was conveniently close in Bika, only a few blocks away – it was a big village but still smaller than all the cities his caravan frequented. Despite the heat and the lack of a cool breeze, Leander easily made his way to the open plaza, a stretch of grass and flower beds surrounded by a square of paved street.

This street connected several buildings; the most commanding was large warehouse, entirely open air with a concrete and wood frame and a vaulted tin roof, inside which various kiosks had been erected. There was a fence all around the warehouse instead of a wall – it must have been the artisan market, the Msanii. Leander had visited them in the past, when the older children were allowed day-trips to the city.

Aside from the Msanii the other buildings were perfectly homogenous red and gold-painted concrete rectangles. Both had a long front window and a nondescript wooden door with a single word painted on it – ClinicGeneralCivil Lodge. They were big, wide buildings. The window to the Clinic was obscured by various signs stuck to it that warned of seasonal allergies and diseases and offered other health care tips, such as encouraging regular hand-washing and rinsing hair with champo to avoid parasites. In contrast, the General Shop window was laden with goods, such as radios and binoculars and ruffled shirts, and encouraged people to spend their Honors on them.

He stepped into the General Shop, where a pale, balding man in a big robe trailing multicolored beads arranged shoes in a series of small racks along the entryway. He raised up his hand in welcome, but continued his task nonetheless. From the door the shop floor was quite broad and open, with hanging racks of clothes along the walls, stalls with canned food and sweets, and tables along the middle with various boxed goods, or unboxed examples with informational flyers stuck to them.

Many of them bore non-Ayvartan lettering. Some looked to Leander like the Svechthan cyrillic script, which he could not read, while a few even had Hanwan or Noctish markings that he could also not read. He was impressed with the Nochtish items, however, since these had to have been the oldest goods in the store – trade with Nocht had ended with the imperial days, if Leander remembered his Ayvartan history correctly, which he was confident that he did.

Once he organized the shoes, the shopkeep welcomed Leander in earnest.

“Comrade,” he spread open his arms, and jovially took Leander in for a quick, arms-reach embrace, “Good to see you, good to see you.” His Ayvartan was a little tortured. “Looking for a vintage radio, comrade?” He seemed to have noticed Leander’s interest in the Nochtish items, one of which was a radio.

“Oh, not at all. I was wondering if you could exchange this for me.”

Leander handed the man his shop ticket, and it was graciously received.

“Oh, new in town? Excellent. I have to write a little form then – in the meantime, pick some clothes for yourself, you have the right to some clothes for free. Pick from anything without a gold mark.”

The Shopkeep produced a gold-colored paper bill with the Hydra symbol.

“You don’t get these as wages – they’re special issue for rare or shortage goods. If a good has a gold mark, it costs Honors. Unfortunately I cannot part with them for free, in that case.”

Leander nodded his head. He watched the man vanish behind his long counter, looking through messy drawers. While the shopkeep filled his forms and looked for a new shop card for him, Leander perused the clothing aisles along the walls of the store.

He did not want anything too fancy. Or at least, he thought he didn’t as he began to look through the clothing items, until he noticed something very handy tucked away in a corner, behind various women’s ruffled shirts. There were a couple of elastic chest binders, with cords near the small of the back, that when pulled would press against the body – probably for church women from when Messianites had influence in Ayvarta. They would certainly be more convenient to bind his breasts that rolls of bandages.

He picked one of them up, along with some button-down shirts and pants, and a new coat. Most of it looked fairly new, but simply made. He avoided anything gold-marked.

He was issued his card without hassle, and received a cloth bag to carry his things. The shopkeep did not look over them, and cheerfully saw Leander out of the shop, patting him in the back.

“You have a great time in Bika,” the shopkeep told him, though Leander thought he sounded a little artificial, as though he was playing a character, “Remember to say ‘comrade’ a lot!”

Leander laughed a bit, waved him goodbye, and went on his way.

He was feeling tired, and thought it about time to find himself a home.

And home was thankfully only a few steps away from the shop, with a lodge in the same plaza.

He stood before the door and felt a sudden bit of trepidation. After all, if the communists refused him now for some reason, he would be out on the street and everything would have been a waste of time! But he had come this far. He knew it would be fine.

He swallowed his fears and went through the door. Inside he found a desk with a sleepy-looking young woman in a red and gold kaftan, a long robe-like overdress. There was a long hall to his left and right with various doors, and a staircase further ahead leading to the second floor. Leander introduced himself and turned in the appropriate ticket. The young woman woke slightly more, stood up from her desk, took his hand and smiled. Standing, she did not look all that grown-up – she was quite shorter than him.

“Welcome, Leander. I’m Saheli. It’s nice to see a brand new face.”

Saheli searched her desk for the appropriate forms and a card, to which a key was attached by a loop of metal. Leander signed his name again, and he took his room card and the associated room key.

“Is there anything I should know about living here? Is there a fee?” He asked.

“Not in the lodge, no!” Saheli said cheerfully. “Your room is free. It comes with a bed, sheets, pillows, drawers and a closet, a basket, one window looking out. The usual things you expect.”

Her words brought Leander great relief. To think he kept expected different!

“I can come and go as I please?” He asked.

“I would entreat you not to disturb the others with noise, but yes, you can.”

Leander read the card on his key. It was room 2-15, so it was probably upstairs.

“I see. Thank you. So, to confirm, I may retire to this room now?”

“Of course! It is your room, comrade Leander. I suggest you rest – you look a bit tired, and you are clearly a bit strung up! Take some time to calm your anxieties, and you shall love Bika!”

“I shall. Thank you, um, comrade Saheli.”

Saheli bowed her head and took her seat again.

Your room.

It seemed that the generosity of the communists had not been a fairy tale after all, though Leander found it all still so difficult to completely wrap his head around how well all of it worked.

Upstairs, Leander unlocked his door – his door. His own door. 2-15 was about the size of the living space in the back of his uncle’s wagon. He put down his cloth bag next to his wooden closet, and laid down on the bed. It was long enough for all of him, he did not have to curl up, and it was firm but comfortable. He bounced on his back a few times. This was his bed, in his room, just a few hours after his family had deserted him, called him awful things and threw him out into the world for what he knew in his heart that he was – a man, no matter what his birth.

He wondered with hazy thoughts what work he would do for the communists.

What kind of work would befitted an honorable man of this society?

It was a strange thought when he put it to himself that way, but heartening.

Leander smiled and sat up in his bed, feeling free of worry.

At his side, on the drawer, he noticed that someone had left a book, perhaps with the knowledge that any new boarders might not have any possessions to their names with which to entertain themselves in their rooms. It was a book of Ayvartan fables, tales and religious songs. When he spread open the pages they made crisp sounds, and the book had a distinctively fresh smell. This was a very new book. Leander smiled, and contented himself with reading the book on his new bed, passing the hours, until the sun started to fall, and his eyes grew heavy, and he dozed off without even really noticing it. He felt an eerie peace of mind, as though he had never been exiled at all.


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Change of Scenery (1.2)


15th of the Aster’s Gloom, 2030 D.C.E.

Shaila Dominance – Outskirts of Bika, southern Shaila, near Mamlakh border.

“It’s time to go Elea, wake up.”

Leander felt his uncle’s knobby wooden cane rubbing against his cheek.

He heard his dead name being spoken, and he thought to ask for a few more minutes of sleep, but he knew the circumstances would no longer permit it.

“I’ll be right out, uncle,” Leander moaned, turning over in the long basket that had been his bed. Many years ago he fit perfectly, but now he was taller, and his lean brown body almost doubled over to fit inside the basket. He heard the thick, beaded curtain clinking as his uncle walked out of the wagon to give him room to make himself ready.

Leander pulled himself up to a stand by the wooden beams running across the wall of the wagon. He took a mango from a nearby basket and nibbled on it while searching around the wagon for some men’s clothes. He threw on a shirt, at first, and a coat over it, and he buttoned both half the way up – then as he remembered, looking into the mirror.

He undid his shirt again, took a roll of bandages, and bound his breasts down with the bandages. They were not very big, thankfully, and he could bind them nearly flat with the bandages. It was uncomfortable – it hurt a bit. But it was all that he could do to them.

Leander looked over himself again and felt pleased.

He was confident in how he looked. Over the past two years, as he had started to feel a certain wrongness with his body and the way people saw him, he had started to make some changes. He had kept his dark hair shorter, to the bottom of his jaw. He had done harder work, and gotten, at least in his own eyes, a bit more muscular and taller. He had hid under a lot of coats and thick pants. It had been a journey of discoveries – nobody in the caravan felt the ways he did, and he had been reluctant to seek their help.

He was right to be cautious – they had started to think he was strange.

Until the past few days, they had kept that to themselves.

But he was overjoyed now, even in light of recent events. He felt so confident, in fact, that he chose not to wear his uncle’s coat anymore. He would not hide himself under layers of thick clothes. He was now a man, a free man, and he would walk without shame.

Leander wrapped the coat around his waist instead, after zipping up a pair of long pants and lacing up some boots that felt a size too big for him. But they were his boots now, and his coat, and his shirt. He was a man, in more ways than one. He would finally leave the caravan and his familiar lifestyle behind, to live with the Ayvartans – the communists. Though he had no choice in the matter, the change of scenery felt proper to him.

His uncle pushed through the beaded curtain again. He embraced Leander, and patted him in the back. He was one of the older, bigger men in the caravan, said to be strong enough to stop a rhinoceros from charging, and yet he had the gentlest face when he looked upon Leander. Tears welled in his eyes as he beheld his new nephew ready to leave.

“Listen, Elea–”

“Leander.” Leander said sternly.

“Yes. Leander.” He nodded. “Listen. I’m sorry, about everything. Had I known how they would react, damn it, I would have just smuggled you out to the communists myself. You don’t deserve this treatment and it is my fault, because I advised you to tell the people. It was my fault you were humiliated like that. I should have known better.”

Leander smiled. “I don’t care about the caravan, uncle. Besides, it worked, didn’t it? They gave me a man’s way out of here. I was not ever going to become anyone’s bride.”

“I just wish you hadn’t had to feel all those glares.” His uncle said. “To hear all the nasty things they said. I think our traditions are important – but nobody should force you to marry anyone, or to be anything you don’t want. Now you’re out there all by yourself, and I feel like I could have done more to protect you.”

“Thank you, Uncle. I’ll be fine. I’ve heard that the communists give lodging and food and clothes to people for free. I know I can go to their village and live there. I’ll be fine.”

They embraced again. It would likely be the last time.

The instant they let go, Leander was on his way, and he was out for good. He climbed off the back of the wagon, without a traveling bag or money or anything but his half-eaten mango. He hoped that the generosity of the communists was as great as the tales his former friends had told him. He walked away from the circle of wagons, leaving their little clearing in the woods. He felt the stares from the women and the girls folding and washing clothes, and from the men chopping wood for fire, following his every step. They watched him leave with vicious interest. He could hear mumbling all around him as he went.

Past the line of bushes and trees, into the wood, the caravan and its nomadic people disappeared behind him. It was as though Leander had pushed past another beaded curtain, and left so much of himself behind. He could not hear them anymore and thought it unlikely that he would again. There was soon another transition as he saw the road up ahead.

He walked out of the woods, passing from forest to field. He stepped onto the dirt road and began to follow it to the village of Bika. It was very big, for a countryside Ayvartan village, with a multitude of log houses and a few newer, taller concrete buildings that he could easily see from the road. Their caravan had passed through Bika before.

Leander felt as though the sun was hovering directly over his head, and he sweated profusely while crossing the dirt road, flanked by log houses on either side. Sparse trees planted (or perhaps, simply left standing) around each block gave him a temporary respite from the heat. Whenever he took to the shade he felt a cool, comforting breeze. Had the sun not been so furious he would have said it was good weather overall.

There were a few people out on the street as well, looking energetic and untroubled, carrying little baskets or boxes to and fro with food wrapped in paper. Most of the villagers were probably still working – he recalled that the “big” industries in Bika were textiles and wooden construction materials. Interspersed with the log houses there were a few big concrete buildings with tin shutters, where this work probably happened.

After asking around, he was pointed toward the big red and gold building in the middle of the village, and he made for it as fast as he could. There was a sign outside with the Ayvartan government’s coat of arms – a menacing reptile, a hydra, with multiple long necks ending in heads that grasped around the words For Bread, For Cotton, For Home. 

Past the doors there was a reception office with two benches. A long desk accessible through a little door separated the front of the reception office from the more spacious back. It was a refreshingly cool room, well lit with electric torches. Spinning fans in the ceiling drove out the heat. At the desk a young, dark-skinned woman in an elaborate red and gold dress and hat greeted him. Her hair was tied into several long braids, which themselves were gathered into a ponytail with a gold ribbon. Leander bowed his head to her and reached for his own hat to tip, only to discover he had brought none.

She smiled nonetheless.

“Welcome, comrade.  What do you require?” She asked.

“Ah, well, I don’t know if I have the right place.” Leander said, feeling foolish. He had never spoken to an official before – he wondered if she had more pressing business than to listen to his troubles. “I’m from out of town, you see. I need a place to stay, and some clothes, and other things like that. I have nothing. I’m more than willing to work for it.”

“This is an office of the Commissariat of Civil Affairs.” She replied, and beamed even more brightly his way. “If you’ve nothing to your name but those clothes then you are in the right place.”

“I am ready to work for a home and bread, you see.” Leander hurriedly said.

“Work is not necessary for a minimum of lodging, food and clothes.”

Leander nodded. He marveled at her words – work was unnecessary? He still planned to work. He would have felt too guilty taking from the communists without doing anything in return. In the caravan you had to work or do chores or something to get any food, unless you were a little child. He was too used to it. It was a man’s place, he told himself, to repay his debts and to help make things and do things for his community. But he was astonished that she sounded so willing to feed him and clothe him, and give him a place to stay.

From one of the shelves along the back of her desk, the woman produced a thick, black, leather-bound ledger, which she opened to a fresh page. There were many fields in the ledger page. One in particular evoked a small sense of dread in Leander, but he would tackle it when they got to it. The receptionist urged him to take a stool from one of the corners and drag it over to sit on. They looked over the paper together.

“What name do you wish to register in the Bika township?”

“Leander Gaurige is my name.” He said.

“A lovely name. You can call me Gadi, comrade Gaurige.”

She jotted the name down with her ink pen. “I hope not to presume too much, comrade, but you are a Zigan, are you not? If you register, we will have to ask you stay in the town for at least a year, and until any work season you have started with a state company is completed. Is that acceptable to you, Leander?”

“I’m a Zigan, but it is acceptable. I have left my caravan.”

“You do not have to leave permanently. We respect your nomadic lifestyle. We just ask you give us some of your time before leaving, you see, for administrative–”

“Ah, it’s irrelevant, ma’am.” Leander interrupted. “They don’t want me.”

“Oh, I see. I’m sorry to hear that.”

Gadi wrote down a few things in the big fields near the bottom of the paper, and Leander wondered if her handwriting was just difficult to follow, or if his Ayvartan was slipping. He spoke it well, he thought, and the older folks had taught him to read it as well, and to write it in big, clumsy strokes. But he had a hard time parsing her script, and she seemed to write a lot of acronyms and contractions. Whoever read and processed these letter for the government probably understood, but Leander did not. Eventually she turned to face him again, smiling, and put her finger on a dreaded little blank.

“You wish to register as a male person, correct?”

Leander felt his heart thrashing. “Yes.” He said.

Without any protest, the receptionist put down a D for Dume or male.

“If you ever want this changed, you can return to this office and ask. Administratively, it will take some time to be processed all the way to Solstice. You can also change your name, which takes even longer to process, sadly; but it will be reflected eventually if you ask for it.” Gadi said. Leander wondered if this was something she mechanically told to everyone registering. Regardless, he felt a huge burden lift from his back.

“I think I’m good for now.” Leander said.

Gadi nodded her head in acknowledgment. She bid Leander to wait a moment, and took the ledger to an adjacent room behind a door. He heard a few noises issue from the room, like the whistling of steam and stamping of metal on a surface.

When next the little door opened Gadi had a few additional papers with her, one sheet of which she deposited in a box. She put away the ledger, and handed Leander a piece of paper – it was a copy of everything they had written on the ledger.

“In case you want some proof of your registration.” She said.

From a drawer she then handed Leander several tickets of different colors, some small as those one would get from having gone to a film theater, others the size of business cards. They were made of cheap paper, not even like a treasury note of the sort one exchanged for coins. Each ticket had the stamp of the Ayvartan government, and instructions in small print that described what they traded towards – ration card, housing card, goods card.

All of these tickets did not look like the cards he saw other Ayvartans carrying.

He asked about this.

“Those tickets are traded for the real cards.” Gadi said. “You can go to the Civil Canteen for a ration card, and you get a housing card for your room in one of the lodges, or from someone with a family home that has a room to spare and is willing to let you stay. You can get a shopping card from the msanii, the artisan market, or from the state-run general store in the village. Oh!” Gabi seemed to remember something suddenly.

“Wait one more moment, please.”

Gadi turned and looked in the back of her little room. She bent over a table, pulled a little ticket from a drawer and wrote on it. She then returned to the desk and pressed this ticket into Leander’s hands along with the rest. “This is a ticket for a clinic card. You don’t have to work, but if you wish to register for work, you will be asked to have a check-up at the local clinic, so if you’re eager you should do this as soon as you can.”

Leander quivered inside. He was not eager for someone to look over his body.

Gadi wrapped her hands around his own, and around the little tickets and vouchers.

She seemed to have noticed his reticence and smiled reassuringly.

“Please do not be afraid to go to the clinic. They’ll understand your situation.”

Leader blinked, and smiled a little awkwardly. Again he wondered if she just said that whenever she thought there was some unspecified trouble, or if she said it to people like the Zigan, or if she was saying it to him specifically because she knew. He had been hesitant the moment he took the clinic voucher. How could they understand, when even he did not, when he had so little language for what he felt? But perhaps it was safe to go.

He took all of the vouchers and put them into his pockets.

“If you choose to sign up for work, you can return here and I will give you a stipend equal to a week’s pay, to help you settle.” Gadi said. “From there you will receive wages for your labor, which will be disbursed by your union or cooperative according to council regulations, and which may be adjusted with the season and your work ethic. If not, you will receive a smaller monthly stipend instead.”

“And food, clothing and lodging is still provided?” Leander asked.

“It is everyone’s right to be lodged, fed and dressed.” Gadi assured.

“Alright.” Leander said, slightly bewildered. “Is there anything more?”

“No, that should be all. I look forward to seeing you again.”

Gadi thanked him for his patience and sent him on his way, her encouraging smile never fading from her face. That was all the deliberation necessary – it felt like only minutes since he passed through the door a vagrant, and now he was out the door again a citizen, with papers and prospects.  He had distantly heard about the communists and the way they lived nowadays, but never could he have imagined they were true.


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Change Of Scenery (1.1)

This story segment contains scenes of violence and death.


25th of the Aster’s Gloom, 2030 D.C.E.

Shaila Dominance – Knyskna City, northern Shaila.

Leander Gaurige felt quaking artillery blasts and heard the shrieking of rifles and the rhythmic thudding of machine guns. Nestled inside the tunnel that once led out of his pillbox, he had his eyes closed but could still see the flashes inside his eyelids whenever a shell went off outside, cutting instantly through the dark. He could feel the hot air wafting into the pillbox. It would become hard to breathe for a moment as the smoke blew inside.

He could not sleep, not in this appalling situation, but he was expected to. This would be the only rest he was allowed at his post. Perhaps it would even be the final time that he voluntarily laid down on his pack and closed his eyes.

Soon he would have to join the battle in earnest.

He was thankful, however.

He got to live these dark days as a he felt a man would have lived them.

And others recognized his efforts.

“Gaurige,” He felt a rifle butt scrape against his cheek.

But it was too soon! He wanted to cry out at the injustice of it.

“Just a minute, please, comrade.” Leander dazedly said.

Satisfied with this response the rifle retreated through the tunnel opening again. There was no more putting it off. All the noise had died down, and with a lull in the enemy shelling, that meant he would rotate out. Leander sat up as much as he could, and gathered his implements, his sub-machine gun, his sharpened trench shovel, his one grenade.

He clipped his belt on and began to button up his uniform shirt. He sighed as he did so, feeling an itch from the worn and sheared elastic of his chest binder, threatening to snap. It was starting to slack a bit as well – he had been fighting for days now and just had no time to try to find a replacement binder to keep his breasts bound.

He crawled out of the dirt tunnel and up to the tight concrete quarters of the pillbox.

Once back on his feet and straightened out, he saluted.

“Oh, forget that.” the Sergeant said, shaking his head from a corner of the pillbox where the machine gun was set, right beside their dilapidated 45mm short-barreled gun. “Don’t salute anyone on your way! Just, run with all your might to the staging area!”

Everyone cooperated to push aside the 45mm gun to create an opening around the side of the aperture. Their pillbox was a fairly large structure for its kind, made to hold both an anti-tank and a machine gun emplacement. With their tunnel partially collapsed behind them by a shell, the only way to leave the circular, concrete defense was to dive through the long firing slit and run. Leander nodded to his comrades, and took a deep breath.

He was soaked in sweat and felt his stomach rolling in his belly. Lining himself up with two other men, he waited for the sergeant’s signal. All of them had been called to join an assault group – the fighters in the city needed everyone they could spare.

From the slit of their box, they could see the outline of the Djose woods almost a kilometer out in the dark.

Since Nocht had taken the forest, largely without a fight, the woods had become a thing to fear at night, a black fortress in the distance from which cannons belched fire out to Knyskna, the rail hub and economic capital of the Shaila dominance.

A broad and open road leading from the wood to Knyskna had been smashed featureless and the field between the defensive line and the forest was littered with shell holes. Craters of many sizes pockmarked the area. No longer was the field an undisturbed green, but a sickly expanse of ashen holes and upturned dirt, intercut with bizarre areas of intact grass and flowers.

The Sergeant was almost in tears before giving his signal.

“Run fast, ok? Don’t look back. Ayvarta needs you now.”

Leander nodded grimly, as did the soldiers with him. Nocht bunker-suppression batteries had pre-sighted the fronts of their pillboxes already. It was their feet, versus the enemy spotters.

The Sergeant looked out to the woods with his binoculars.

He snapped his fingers and cried, almost in pain, “Go!”

Leander and the men with him rushed out of the slit, climbing over the lip and forcing themselves through. Leander was very slender, and he easily rolled between the slit, gathered himself and took off running from the pillbox and into town. His comrades were not as lucky. He heard the ominous sawing noise of a Norgler machine gun and put his hands over his head, closing his eyes as he ran. Behind him he heard screams.

Someone had been clipped in the leg.

He heard a thud as a compatriot tripped, and became fodder for the guns.

There were still steps behind him, so at least one ally remained.

Leander would not dare to look and confirm this.

From the forest the enemy opened up on the pillbox and their fire trailed up the road. Norglers blew automatic fire across the defensive line, and were soon joined by field artillery. Half-hunched and running as fast as he could, Leander could still tell a shell had fallen – there was a silence like a sucked-in breath followed a loud, echoing blast. Had the blast been solitary he would have heard the fragments and the dirt falling back to earth a few moments later, and the billowing of smoke; but shells hardly ever fell alone. As he ran into the city a tumultuous artillery barrage followed. Blast after blast silenced the screaming at his back. It was a cruel cacophony that the victim would never get to hear.

Leander took solace in that he only heard the shells.

That he heard the blasts meant that the shells were not meant for him.

He rushed up the road and weaved around the closest row of buildings. To the last one they had been bombed out, the walls collapsed and the roofs sunken through the middle of each structure. They had been hit with sparse bombardments but even one bomb was enough to knock them out. Once they had been beautiful buildings, whimsical, made of rough clay and straw bricks so that they seemed like a confectionary, like brown wafer. Most of the southern part of the city had been reduced to such a state. Leander walked as fast as he could using the buildings for cover, going through two or three blocks of ruined houses before finding himself in an open plaza, the staging area.

He looked behind him one last time and saw nobody coming.

Soldiers gathered into the center of the plaza, picking up armaments and climbing into the backs of trucks to be driven out for the assault on the forest, while officers made the ruins closest to the plaza into their headquarters for fear of being out in the open.

A collection of flat-bed trucks were arranged around the plaza, each carrying air defense guns, 37 or 85mm cannons pointing at the sky. Searchlights shone from the park and up into the dark sky as well, working in tandem with the guns. Looking closely, Leander could see similar lights trailing across the sky further into the city.

They were on the lookout for possible air strikes. Nocht had not yet attacked them at night — but nothing precluded this happening. After all, they themselves were planning a night attack right at that moment. Leander turned his attention away from the sky and stood in the line behind the other soldiers. There were crates near them, and officers handing them weapons and tools that they would need before ushering them into the trucks.

As more soldiers climbed in and Leander came closer to the front of the line, an older woman officer pulled him aside unceremoniously. She seemed very interested in his body, looking down at his legs and examining his build. At first Leander was afraid.

What was this woman noticing about him? Did she have something to say about his identity as a male soldier – and what would it possibly be? But this was Ayvarta, and such things seemed beyond anyone’s concerns.

Instead the woman officer thrust upon him a metal helmet and a metal plate vest, and she led him to a different line and a different set of trucks than where he previously stood. She helped him to affix the metal armor over his chest, and to strap on the helmet over his head. She took his submachine gun magazines, and gave him round drums instead. Once he was fully equipped, she put his SMG in his hands and saluted him.

“You’re going in with the shock troops, comrade. You look nimble enough for it. Frankly, if we left it to volunteers nobody would go. But don’t fret. The armor will protect you from pistols and SMGs, as will the helmet. Don’t dive in front of any Norglers and you’ll be fine. Your job is to punch a hole for us.”

Around him were several other soldiers, similarly dressed. He realized that she was not just addressing him, but all the men and women who were already standing in the line as well. “Punch a hole, ma’am?” Leander asked. He became suddenly conscious of his voice – it was very similar to that of the lady officer.

“We’re gonna be trucking you ladies and gents into the forest to flank the Nocht line – we’re expecting them to attack in the morning and we need to disrupt their advance. You’ll get more instructions on the way.” She gave him a friendly slap in the back and a gentle shove into the line. “Have at them, boy.”

Leander nodded and took his place in the line. Despite the bleakness of his situation, there was something in the character of the Ayvartans around him that gave him strength and that made him face the dark woods and the screeching guns with a nugget of pride and purpose in his heart. Perhaps this was that ephemeral-sounding camaraderie of socialism – or perhaps a hidden little joy he felt from the officer’s acknowledgment.

He felt more strongly than ever that he wanted to protect his new home.


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Operation Monsoon (0.4)

This story segment contains scenes of violence and death.


Cissean Border Defensive Line

Madiha hid behind the rubble of one of the concrete guard posts near the defensive line. It had been shattered instantly by a direct hit from an enemy shell moments ago. Unlike the scattered artillery in the first attack, this one was more spirited, with shells falling consistently and by the dozen, but the majority of the blasts simply pitted the hillside. Despite its power Nochtish artillery had a deficiency in range when compared to Ayvartan cannons: Madiha knew she could pinpoint and destroy the artillery positions given a little more time, a battery of her own, and of course, that she survived the barrage.

Around her the machine gunners and cannon operators hunkered down and prayed. There was little protection from the artillery fire sporadically hitting the line save for its inaccuracy. Already a cannon was in pieces thirty meters from Madiha’s impromptu redoubt, and she saw bodies cooked around it. A shell had fallen on top of them.

But those deaths were not without their value – she thought she knew now where the enemy’s artillery batteries were located and she was almost ready to counter.

All she needed was for her own batteries to pick up their pace and follow her instructions.

Far behind her another shell landed, and she felt a wave of heat and bits of flying dust.

Another guard post crumbled under the blast.

Madiha pulled out her compass, and held the radio speaker box to her ear, calling the gunners.

“Ready for coordinates, ma’am!” They replied.

“Load High Explosive rounds and follow my directions, then fire with all available guns.” Madiha said. She then gave them the coordinates that she had thought up, using known map sectors; she put down the radio and looked out toward her own defensive line.

All of her crews were still cowering.

“Enemy forces are firing explosive shells aimed at destroying the pillboxes, edge barriers and guard posts,” she shouted out to her crews, “they are inaccurate and you will not be killed except by a direct hit on your position! Slowly and calmly relocate yourself and your weapons away from the concrete barriers! Crouch low to the ground and keep as still as possible while fighting. Maintain a distance of 5 meters or more from other friendly positions. This will prevent multiple crews from being hit at once! Nochtish guns have lower accuracy and range than our own. You can survive this day if you follow my orders!”

As she shouted this several more shells fell around the line, most of them many meters away on the slope below them, tearing out chunks of the earth and smashing concrete pillboxes flat. One lucky shell landed a few meters in front of her, but the rubble between her and the blast shielded her from the heat and from the shell fragments. She peeked out after the blast and found an unoccupied pillbox smashed to pieces a few meters away.

Nocht was attacking the fortifications still – they must really have thought them all manned. This was a preparatory bombardment. They still had time to prepare!

Then Madiha finally heard the retort of an artillery battery close by: her own artillery guns had begun to fire using the solutions she had given them. She saw the red tracers briefly in the sky. Explosions rocked the forest a few kilometers out.

She had gotten a good bead on the enemy after observing their fire.

Almost a supernaturally good bead – she had never considered herself good at math or even terribly well educated in it at all, but she could tell almost everything about a gun and its fire by observing the situation enough. She knew her fire was accurate.

Her own batteries continued to work, dropping shells across the field into the forest. At first the enemy guns sounded and more shells started to crash around her position and several meters behind her cover. But the enemy’s fire started to slacken under the attack of her guns, until the Nochtish artillery quieted completely. Madiha hoped they had lost cannons or crew, and that they weren’t merely repositioning themselves.

Madiha raised her binoculars to her eyes and looked across the field, watching the edge of the forest and the tall, unkempt grass between the borders for signs of the enemy.

With her free hand she pulled up her radio and called Sergeant Bogana on the extreme end of the defensive line from her own position. The hillside was long enough that she could not verbally call from her end, the rightmost end, to the leftmost portion of the line – Sergeant Bogana had been one of Purana’s experienced men, and she had sent him to the other end with a hand-held radio in order to coordinate their defense of the line.

“I have lost a gun. How fares your side of the line, Lieutenant?” Madiha said.

“We lost a 76mm anti-tank gun, but we’re fine. We’ve got a half-dozen anti-tank guns and a couple of machine guns over here – but the troops have had very little training with them, I’m afraid. We’ll do our best to stop any attacks, commander.”

“Put it into perspective for me: how little training?”

“The Regional Council reduced the training times so much that I’ve barely been able to get two live fire exercises going in two months.” replied Bogana. “They know the basics of how to aim, load and shoot but they’ve hardly had time to practice in the field ma’am.”

“Grave, but not insurmountable as long as someone with experience can command them. Keep them together, Lieutenant. We can survive the day.”

Across the field the grass and shrubs, and the trees on the edge of the wood, began to sway and shake from some disturbance. Madiha focused her binoculars. She saw trees collapsing in the forest and earth being thrown up, and then she saw the black and grey exhaust blowing from the green woodland. She called out to the line for attention.

Grey steel hulks cleared the tree line and advanced across the field and toward the slope. These were Nocht M3 Hunter Assault Guns: boxy, rattling machines each mounting a somewhat short-barreled but still powerful 75mm cannon. While the placement of the cannon was unfortunate – it was stuck on one side of the chassis with limited traverse in any direction – the vehicle was well armored and had a low profile, lacking any semblance of a turret. It was also relatively quick on its tracks for an armored vehicle.

The armor advanced quickly in a tight formation, trampling the field, rolling harmlessly over the pits and the mines and the hidden barbed wire that had slowed and destroyed numerous light vehicles and infantry. They were charging the hill directly.

Madiha shouted, first to the line and then into the radio for the rest of the troops who were not within earshot, “Armor incoming! All guns to attention, begin loading armor-piercing high-explosive rounds and fire once the tanks come within 1000 meters of you! Aim for the sides of the tank or for the tracks! Avoid shooting directly at the front!”

As she shouted this the lead tank raised its gun and paused its march for a moment in order to fire a shot – a high explosive shell erupted from the gun and hurtled just past Madiha’s hiding spot and leveled a checkpoint building, casting debris over her gun line.

“Open fire!” She called out. In succession and all across the line her own guns sounded.

She heard the rhythmic cracking of the guns and saw her own shells suddenly flying the length of the field. Shells overflew the hill and crashed into the forest; they smote holes into the ground around the advancing tanks; several poorly angled shots crashed uselessly against the front and side armor of the vehicles, deflecting into the air.

Madiha counted eight tanks spread across the front, and their own fire soon joined hers in earnest. Their cannons had poor traverse, but more than enough to make up the quickly shrinking range, closing in under five hundred meters and firing their cruel shots in well-planned arcs. Enemy fire bounded off the side of hill, smashing against the crest, or roared overhead, taking chunks out of the road or the nearby buildings, showering the line with flying metal fragments and casting aside defenses in bursts of explosive force.

A series of explosions close and afar took Madiha’s senses.

She was neither hit nor even injured, but a gun near to her had gone up in smoke and flames, and she knew its crew to be dead or dying; and in that instant she also knew that an M3 had been penetrated and destroyed. She saw it go up in flames amid the grass.

This triggered something in her. Inside the cacophony of battle she felt her mind growing dull and her spirit seemed to leave her body as she realized who scored the kill.

For a strange moment, she saw through the eyes of Adesh Gurunath.


A shell landed five meters away. It hit the gun shield on a nearby cannon dead on and exploded, flinging the crew like pieces off an upturned game board. Nothing of the cannon or mount remained, all of it scattered to the air. Adesh felt the fragments of metal like hot needles falling all around him. They bit into his uniform and cut his cheek and neck.

He had wanted to weep, to crumple and beg for his life to some unseen force–

But in the same instant he grit his teeth and through hot tears he braced himself against his 76mm anti-tank gun. Lifting it by two long, metal carriage rods, he turned the piece along its side until the barrel of the gun pointed ahead of the advancing target.

He grew suddenly numb to the pain and fear.

Something was burning in him, something urged him forward.

He felt like crying, and he cried; but he also felt protected and led. Inspired.

“200 meters and closing in!” Adesh cried out, “Load AP!”

Nnenia adjusted the gun sight quickly while Eshe heaved the weighty armor-piercing shell and loaded it into the breech. Adesh and Nnenia readjusted the gun by lifting and swinging around its carriage again and again – the enemy tank kept moving.

Working as one they dropped the gun, and Eshe pulled the firing mechanism.

There was a thundering of metal and a kick back as the shell erupted from the gun and soared downhill, across hundreds of meters of the field, crashing directly through the side of the M3 assault gun. Penetrating the weaker side armor it detonated inside the hull; smoke blew from the crippled machine, and it later exploded in earnest, perhaps from abuse to its engine or to its ammunition compartment. The blast was loud enough to drown out the screaming of the enemy tanks’ own guns and the intermittent explosions across the defensive line, as if to declare the Ayvartan victory louder than that of the enemy.

Adesh, Nnenia and Eshe did not notice the explosion – by then they were readjusting their gun for the next shot as the assault guns drew into ever closer range, soon to be upon them if something was not done. They worked rapidly, with precision and confidence unknown to them before this crisis. Until today their training hours had been minimal.

All of them could feel it, something pulling at them, twisting their emotions, keeping them standing. They felt oddly familiar with war. Through the burning tears, their vision was clear; through the pain and exhaustion and nausea their bodies still moved. Adesh felt like he would collapse any second, like he had already passed the border between life and death in all but the action of dropping down. But his body did not quit him – he felt as though his soul, something indeterminate within, fought on, where he had given up.

The team turned the weapon, targeting the lead tank – Adesh felt a growing confidence in his knowledge of the gun. He felt like he had the blueprint right in his mind.

“300 meters!” He said with unnatural precision, “Load AP!”

Their gun was stationed on the far right of the line, and they had lost many comrades; from more populated sectors a renewed barrage began to cover for the missing fire from Adesh’s fallen allies. A tank that was fast approaching Adesh’s position was hit in the side of its gun mantlet, caving-in the steel and paralyzing the machine with a smoking wound to its head. They were whittling them down. Nnenia helped Eshe haul the next round, and Adesh fired it – they lacked crew discipline, switching roles constantly, but nonetheless their next shot burst through the tracks of one of the tanks causing it to lose control. Where it finally stopped, its fixed gun faced harmlessly away from the defensive line.

One by one the remaining assault guns began to fall, shells smashing tracks, striking cannon housings and warping the riveted armor, exploding in front of portholes and stunning crews. Smoke rose from the wrecks, and men escaped the hatches and were cut down by machine guns that rained fire on the grass without remorse.

“200 meters!” Adesh shouted again, “Load AP!”

Everyone loaded, aimed and took fire once again, sending a red tracer shell flying out, but the shock from their cannon was subsumed into a greater, sudden disturbance.

Their feet shook, the chains and sights on their gun rattled loudly; a blast several magnitudes larger than anything they could launch drowned out the entire battlefield.

Behind them a thick column of smoke rose around the headquarters building, fires raging behind the cloud. There were several detonations each louder than the next, followed by the pounding of rubble on concrete as the building completely collapsed and fell over the hedges. Flames danced within the cloud of dust and smoke at the top of the hill.

There was little time to take in the astonishing magnitude of the HQ’s demolition – the silence along the line lasted only a moment after the collapse, before they heard renewed cries and roaring engines from across the field. Dozens of gray uniformed riflemen and several additional assault guns charged toward the field, treading the safe routes cut through the traps by the first armored spearhead. Adesh and crew huddled behind their gun shield as the approaching riflemen took quick shots between their charges.

Adesh felt the strange fire in him going out.

He began to shake, weary and unused to battle.

Though he reached in his mind for that experience he had before, it slowly left him.

“900 meters,” he mumbled, stammering, his voice failing him, “load High-Explosive.”

Nnenia tried to lift the gun to move its barrel back in line with the approaching riflemen, but she hardly could. Eshe reached down into a big sack, and tugged on a heavy explosive shell, trying to lift it into the breech. “Adesh, help me with this,” Eshe cried, his hands and knees shaking, “I can barely move it, I’m sorry, I feel dizzy.”

Adesh’s thoughts grew more alien and distant. He could barely hear or speak anymore.

His guardian spirit had awoken and left him and he did not know.


“Captain? Captain, are you hurt?”

Madiha heard a sharp cracking noise deadly close to her, and jolted back to life, shaking as though experiencing a convulsion.

She looked in every direction, a sudden and nauseating panic overtaking her. Her eyes had not been her own and they still weren’t.

She heard Parinita’s voice, but in front of her she saw only carnage of ages past. A warlord in the savannah guiding his spearmen to battle against another tribe; a shaman, in a straw hut on a journey to the spirit world, seeing and tasting the war that his tribe was waging; a soldier in the pre-modern age, when Ayvarta first fought Lubon, who knew exactly how far every bit of his inaccurate grapeshot would go; and his subordinates below the ramparts, whose minds he manipulated to make them fiercer, to keep them from buckling as they charged out to the field, a vanguard sure to die against the line of muskets braced against them; and a little girl at the end of the Empire whose cursed eyes coordinated revolution across all of Ayvarta, as the socialist Hydra plan was put into place–

She grabbed hold of her head, grit her teeth and screamed.

“Captain!”

Her vision slowly cleared, and the pounding in her brains slowly subsided.

She was shaken violently out of her stupor when a high-explosive shell flew overhead and crashed several meters behind them, punching a hole into the road out to the headquarters building – of which nothing was left but a pillar of smoke.

Parinita huddled close to her, behind the rubble; after the shell struck, she rose from cover and put a round from an anti-tank rifle down the field, braced against the rocks. She cursed under her breath and dove behind cover again, working the bolt on the rifle.

“Captain, are you injured? I’ve been trying to cover you with this BKV,” she ran her hands along the BKV-28 anti-tank rifle, loading a round in frustration, “but I can’t stop them! And I think the Inspector is done with the demolition but I can’t get a hold of her!”

Madiha silently took the rifle from her hands and inspected it briefly. She peeked from her cover and looked out to the field, where the Nocht soldiers had begun a new charge. Many riflemen ran across the open field, only to step into mines or fall under the withering fire of the defensive line’s few remaining machine guns. The bodies were already piling. More successful were the men huddling behind a renewed assault gun charge, advancing on the line in the same route that the earlier, now broken spearhead had tread. They were around 500 meters in – and closing. At around 100 meters it would be their victory.

“Parinita, radio in a howitzer barrage on the field after I take this shot.” Madiha said.

Parinita nodded and took the radio from Madiha.

“Captain, you’re bleeding.” She said, in a stammering voice.

Madiha felt it then, a slick sensation across her upper lip and under her nose. She wiped her face with her hands, and found that her nose was bleeding. She felt no pain, no injury. “We will lament the lost fluid soon enough.” She said. “Be ready with that radio.”

Using the BKV’s bipod she braced the gun on the rubble and faced the lead tank in the new formation. There were no enhanced optics on the rifle, only fixed iron sights, a major failing of the BKV that was scarcely ever corrected – but Madiha knew just where to shoot. She had known it the second she touched the BKV, the instant she braced it on the rocks and looked down the irons toward the advancing armor. She pulled the trigger.

BKV rifles were long and clunky and made a lot of noise, but their shots went fast and they could cover this range easily. Madiha saw the effects of her attack almost instantly. The round pierced one of the road wheels, knocking it clean off the tank.

She reloaded quickly and fired again, this time through the track, splitting it.

The lead tank lost control and veered to its right, slamming into an adjacent vehicle.

Nocht’s spearhead slowed as the infantry following behind the knocked-out tanks had to scramble to find new cover, all the while the machine guns and AT guns on the hill took the opportunity to hone in on them and inflict more accurate fire. Parinita called in the fire mission, and Madiha was impressed by the thorough coordinates she gave.

Madiha heard the howitzers shooting from behind their lines and saw the shells fall around the infantry and assault guns. A hit across the lightly armored tops of the assault guns might have struck the engines dead-on and killed the machines immediately, but she could not hope for such accuracy – carnage was the more immediate goal.

Carnage, she got: the entire field went up in smoke and flames after the first few shells.

Madiha was taken aback by the ferocity of the blasts, a series of explosions all across the borderline from the field to the forest. They coincided with her fire mission, but her guns could not possibly have done this. There were massive explosions, like several dynamite charges going off at once, blasting the whole field between Ayvarta and Cissea; men butchered, turned to pieces instantly from underfoot; massive steel chunks from the assault guns flying through the air; deafening blasts and blinding flames swallowing the foot of the hill. It was as if hell itself had opened beneath the enemy, digging its demons a burning trench. Columns of fire streaked across the field. It was a horrific show.

“What was that?” Parinita cried, but Madiha only knew this from reading her lips.

The moment her mouth opened another blast went off and silenced them both.

Madiha raised the radio to her mouth and shouted herself hoarse, calling for a retreat from the front line. She picked up the BKV, took Parinita’s hand and made for the burnt-out guard post a few meters behind her. Ahead she saw trucks coming down the road, led by a KVW half-track, and she ordered everyone to run for the safety of the trucks and prepare to evacuate. Then she heard someone behind her calling through a sudden silence.

“Captain Nakar, please wait!”

Madiha found a figure hailing her and moving in from the line of pillboxes, carrying a shovel and a green metal case. She stopped, and bid Parinita to stop as well. The figure was a familiar KVW engineer, dressed in the green KVW rifle squadron uniform but with a shawl and utility belt indicating engineer status. When she caught up with them, the engineer had a stony expression, and her breathing and demeanor was eerily calm – she was not stressed at all by the explosions. Her long wavy black hair was a little tossed about, and her brown skin was going slightly gray with exposure to ash and smoke.

“Captain,” the KVW engineer saluted, and then tonelessly continued, “At the order of Inspector Kimani I triggered all of the explosives that had been hidden under the field as Last Resort measures, via cable charges – I apologize that it was not done more promptly, but I found it difficult to dig up the old fuses, and Gowon’s staff was of little help in finding them. We also demolished the headquarters to prevent it falling to the enemy.”

That explained the explosions; the engineer had detonated the entire field under Nocht’s feet. It was not Madiha’s work. She had been saved at the last minute here.

“Good work, Sergeant Agni,” Madiha said, trying to keep a strong front despite her bewilderment with the events transpiring, “I take it then that the 3rd Motorized Division has arrived to cover the evacuation then. Are we ready to depart now?”

“Yes, we are all here, but I’m afraid we had to commandeer vehicles from nearby towns to have enough to start evacuating the base.” Sgt. Agni said, “Battlegroup Ox is woefully lacking in motorization, unlike the KVW. But nonetheless we are ready.”

Madiha’s head had cleared entirely, and her nose had ceased to bleed.

Through a mild headache she took stock.

Behind them, the field and most of the hill had become an inferno, the sky darkening with the smoke, the corpses of fallen soldiers burning within raging, open flames. Madiha thought that the traps along the border must have been more elaborate than she could have ever imagined – and yet they had failed. This area was no longer defensible. Adjar had been breached, and Nocht was rolling in to attack them over the open terrain. Certain structures in their government had predicted and had feared this with every fiber of their being for the past few weeks. Nothing concrete had been done to allay that fear. None of their cries were listened to. Now a border of flames stalled Nocht, but only temporarily. There were probably breaches elsewhere in the dominance. They had to leave quickly.

“Parinita, I suspect I will need you close in the coming days.” Madiha said.

“Yes, I had been meaning to say something about that as well.” Parinita said. She tied up her strawberry-colored hair into a ponytail while she spoke with renewed determination, and not a hint of her stuttering. “I had no love and little respect for Major Gowon, Captain. Few people in Ox had any – so, while it might be damning you with faint praise, I feel a lot better led by you, Captain. We survived all of this thanks to you.”

She bowed her head, and tried to smile a bit. She raised her left arm in a stiff salute.

“I feel as though the full reality of what has happened has not sunk in for me, Captain. If I weep, later on, or if I shake, I hope you will understand. But please allow me to serve you even if I serve with tears in my eyes. Thank you, and spirits defend you.”

Parinita held her salute. There were indeed tears in her eyes.

Madiha felt like asking the same of her – but instead she simply nodded and smiled.

Sergeant Agni led them from the front lines, with Madiha shouting for any stragglers to put grenades into the barrels of their anti-tank guns, to deny them to the enemy, and then to leave their positions behind and follow her. There were few people to call on – of all her emplacements across the defensive line, barely six or seven still stood.

She had lost almost all of the impromptu defense that Lt. Purana and Bogana had managed to build, and had it not been for the cable charges hidden in the field, they would have all been lost in the end. Shambling away from their positions as though dazed by strong drink, the soldiers destroyed their guns and headed up the road.

At the top of the slope, near the burning HQ, there were many trucks full of troops leaving the base, and towing the leftover guns behind them. A large, green, armored truck with four antennae and a machine gun turret stood prominently in the midst of the evacuation, and Madiha and Parinita made their way to it.

Inspector Kimani sat in the back, and saluted them as they approached.

“Good work, Madiha. For what you had on-hand, you did admirably.” Kimani said.

“Thank you, ma’am. May I make a call on the radio? We need to make preparations.”

“Ox is yours to command.” Kimani said. “And I will follow your orders as well.”

Madiha was confused. This was a sudden change in the plans.

“I’m only a Captain in the KVW, ma’am. I cannot command you. You are in charge of the 3rd KVW Motor Rifles – and I will defer to your command again once we evacuate. I am simply a member of your planning staff, who wishes to carry out a plan.”

“It would be disastrous, if I remain in command.” Kimani said. She was as stony and toneless now as Sergeant Agni – it was a common trait in KVW soldiers. Madiha was only a civilian liaison, and had been deemed incompatible with the crisis training that helped the KVW maintain their almost unnatural calm. This only made her all the more wary of her current position. Kimani stood off the back of the truck, and put both of her hands on Madiha’s shoulders, staring into her eyes. Madiha could see the thin, red lines circling around the inspector’s irises – the mark that she had received the full KVW training regime.

Kimani started to speak again, her fingers tracing Madiha’s broad shoulders. “Madiha, I told you before that there was a specific reason I wanted you with me, here, now. It was not so you could go to Bada Aso to try to repent, nor to write notes on a clipboard. I knew this fight was coming, and I told you as much. In truth, as a KVW inspector I am unfit to lead it. I do not balk at casualties, I do not preserve my own life – I do not feel pain and hardly feel exhaustion. I can feel your heart rushing even as I touch you now. That is why you have to lead them. Not just Ox, but the 3rd KVW Motor Rifles. It must be you.”

Madiha was overwhelmed. Things she would have rather not remembered resurfaced in her mind as she stared into the unfeeling eyes of Inspector Kimani. Madiha had never led full-scale battles, even as a military advisor. She had sat behind the lines, offering training, talking about gun ranges and precision shooting, formulating strategies, supporting operational planning. During the revolution she had been a courier between rebel groups; she had never even picked up a rifle after that. During the Akjer incident she was a spy-hunter, finding radios hidden in walls and breaking ciphers passed along in seedy bars, and then sending unarmed infiltrators to their deaths by firing squad.

She was a thinker, a planner, a good socialist, she thought.

And she was repentant and haunted by so many awful things.

“I am not a commander, Chinedu.” Madiha pleaded, using Kimani’s given name.

Kimani shook her head. “You could have fooled me. You have a plan, don’t you?”

In an instant, without thinking over it much, Madiha felt a burning in her head and her heart that compelled her. As if from another mind a dozen thoughts rushed to her. She began to explain without stopping and without thinking it over, “The situation: Dori Dobo is doomed to us, as is the border; it is impossible to organize a defense there. We must evacuate everything possible from the city. Move all food and equipment to Bada Aso. We will make our stand at Bada Aso, abandoning Dori Dobo to slow down Nocht.”

She realized what she had said, but she was helpless to take it back.

Kimani squeezed Madiha’s shoulders, an uncommonly gentle gesture from her superior officer. “I thought your peculiar strengths would be gone after what you suffered in the Revolution. But that was not the war you were born for after all.”

That terrible headache burned at all of her mind.

Madiha felt like her brains would split in two.

“You will reconcile all your confusion, eventually.” Kimani said gently. “If I understood what was in store for you in detail, Madiha, I would explain it. I want to help you. But I don’t know. For now, all I can tell you is that you are needed here. Make your call on the radio, Captain. For all of our sakes, you must carry out your plan.”

Madiha was unable to speak back to her or understand fully what she meant.

She felt that if she spoke, some other person would talk in her stead. Was she losing her mind? She felt Parinita hold her hand in support, and she felt Kimani let her go, and she stepped aside, ushering Madiha into the command truck.

Still struck dumb, Madiha opened the radio channel and called Dori Dobo’s command, mechanically repeating her orders to the confusion of everyone there. Kimani and Parinita butted in and supported her – she hoped that would be enough to get things going.

She switched to Ox’s communications and radioed all forces to fall back to Bada Aso.

Finally, she braced herself for the most frightening of her planned calls.

“Battlegroup Lion, this is Captain Nakar of the 3rd KVW Motor Rifles Division. Ox has come under attack by Nocht forces. What is your status? I repeat, what is your status, Lion? Has the Shaila dominance fallen under attack? Is the Nocht Federation attacking in Shaila?” There was silence on the line. Then there was screaming.

“Oh thank the ancestors!” A voice, cracking and shifting and almost too rough to understand. “We need your support, Captain. At this rate we’ll be encircled! We need everything you can spare, or we will lose Shaila’s borders for sure!”

Madiha trembled at the desperation inherent in the voice.

“We have nothing to spare. How long can Lion hold out?”

There was no response.

Madiha turned off the radio. She buried her face in her hands.

“It appears that I have been given command.” She said, her heart rushing. “We move to Bada Aso, and make our stand there. It is the only defensible area left.”

Parinita and Kimani nodded solemnly.

The evacuation proceeded quickly, and they were out on the Ayvartan roads long before the flames along the field had gone out. Flames that might soon engulf all of Adjar dominance, all of the adjoining Shaila dominance that Battlegroup Lion was struggling to protect, and perhaps all of Ayvarta. Lines of trucks rushed out of the border area, filled with soldiers like Adesh, Nnennia and Eshe, towing behind them the few guns they had left, watching the skies and the burning trail they had left behind.

The Solstice War had begun.


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